Stardust Solaris's Sleepless Journal

(Verse) I don’t make wishes anymore, lookin’ at the sky ‘Cause I got a handful of wishes that didn’t fly Heart on my hand when I look up with teary eyes I recall the things that made me badly cry. I learned how to smile while I’m breaking inside So I talk to the stars, but they never reply. why this happens to me, I have got no one to imply. So i dont make wishes anymore, cause they never learned to fly. (Chorus) I don’t make wishes anymore, no ‘Cause they never learned to fly I used to throw them to the night Watch them fall back down like lies If hope’s a bird, then mine was born With broken wings, afraid of heights So I don’t make wishes anymore I just survive the night (Bridge) Why this happens to me, I got no one to imply So I don’t make wishes anymore I just look at the sky (Final Chorus) I don’t make wishes anymore, no ‘Cause they never learned to fly So I don’t make wishes anymore I just survive the night

Countless times I thought of ending me, "that's the only way left", I used to think.  But I aint brave to face the world nor am brave to die. I thought it would be better for me being barely alive. I stumbled on the way cause there's no escape, there ain't a single space where I would feel safe. So, I stopped running away from everything that haunts me, I faced the words and people those constantly taunts me. Though the arrows they shot pierced right into my heart, still, I've been telling myself, "let them play their part",  "the dark you are witnessing ain't forever gonna last", "and time will come when you'll rise but they'll fall apart". Because there's a truth hidden beneath what all knows, "the darker the night, the brighter it glows". "The more they force the dark onto you, the more your light will shine", "Just a few more steps ahead and you're going to be fine"

it's just— another 3 AM & i feel like crying, another 3 AM feeling unseen while trying. another 3 AM with me befriending the dark, another 3 AM after losing my inner spark. another 3 AM with me without being heard, another 3 AM with me letting down my guards. another 3 AM with my numb eyes staring at the ceiling, another 3 AM with me thinking all my wounds are healing. another 3 AM with the stars knowing my secrets, another 3 AM with me dying inside out of regrets. another 3 AM after letting everyone hurt my heart, another 3 AM with me falling and tearing apart. another 3 AM with me letting tears fall into my pillow, another 3 AM without a single moment I didn’t feel low. another 3 AM with flashbacks of me giving my best, another 3 AM with pains growing in my chest. and the clock keeps blinking 03:00 like it’s mocking me. still, it’s just— another 3 AM with me being sleepless and wasting all my night. another 3 AM with me thinking everything’s gon’ be alright.

 (Verse 1) The things for I wished,  raw and unpolished, give me now, now. Desires unspoken, a heart split open, mend the cracks now, now. (Chorus) Free me from agony, free me from irony. Free me from agony, irony, free me from agony! (Verse 2) I've been living in the dark as a slave to night. I've been holding my breath in until I saw the light. I let the wound heal itself, it only got worse,  thought won't regret but got so much remorse. Now I wanna risk- it all just to live, now I wanna breathe. Prayers that I prayed want answer for all, 'cause I made SURE,  those were PURE. (Pre-chorus) The things I'd lose in- process of wanting,  bring me now, now. Thoughts that are bleeding, stitched wrong, still aching, pull me whole now, now. (Chorus) Free me from agony, free me from irony. Free me from agony, irony, free me from agony! (Bridge) Why did I carry this all on my own? Why did I bury what I should’ve shown? Kept it inside till it started to rot, called it hea...

[VERSE]  Shh, don't be loud, I like when it's quieter. Days are too chaotic, so I am an all-nighter. I know tonight I'm- shining brighter, looking perfect, night is serene, you don't need to confirm it. Wait n see how nice- being quiet is, and the silence, if you must say it,  [Pre-chorus]  come closer and,   WHISPERR it. (whisperrr)  [Chorus] Instead of saying it louder, come and- WHISPERR it (whisper it). You can see the beauty of calm if you WHISPERR it (whisper, whisper). I love it right just when you WHISPERR it (love when you whisper it). So come closer hold my shoulder and  WHISPERR it (come close and WHISPERR). [VERSE 2] Don’t disturb this quiet air, Took so long to settle here.  If we talk too loud when it's mere, This beauty might disappear. Let it breathe, don’t interfere, Calm is fragile, keep it near. Noise is illegal, but if you have something to share,  [Pre-chorus] I'm all ears BUT,  WHISPERR it. (whisperrr)  [Chorus...